Sometimes I forget about the entirety of the world around me. My personal issues become monstrous, like behemoth mountains that I cannot scale or fathom a way to overcome, even though they may be but mere speed bumps on the road of life. Sometimes I feel like the world owes me an explanation for bullying me, when all it is doing is shelling out tough love or tossing a log in the campfire, just to spark a new obstacle that I can overcome and learn from the experience.
All the meanwhile, I am clueless of everyone and everything around me. I am shrouded by my own minuscule anomalies that I pay absolutely no mind to the ones around me; my friends, my family, my acquaintances, my neighbors. I may have some issues to deal with, but I must constantly remind myself that it could always be worse, and that I can get through this.
Just recently, I posted a comment on social media about how this new year has started off on the wrong foot for me. I have dug myself into a hole financially, and have not really provided myself a safety net for the unexpected. And guess what happened? The unexpected happened. It was a bunch of small unexpecteds, but they started adding up, and they happened all at once.
Looking back, I can see how this may have come across to others, and I would like to apologize to everyone for being so selfish. Shortly after posting, I received a text from a very good friend of mine. He began to tell me how he and his wife just found out that she has breast cancer and would need to be subjected to months of chemo and surgery. This is terrifying. I truly feel for him, and can not even imagine how he is feeling, or what he is going through right now.
When he contacted me, all of my little problems and issues were pushed aside in my mind. It provided me a different perspective on my own issues, and reminded me of the importance of being there for my friends and family in times of need. It also allowed me to look at the bigger picture and the much larger scheme of things. Perspective can be a funny thing, but one must always remember to steer away from the tunnel vision of one perspective alone.
This got me to thinking, and I took a step back for a moment, from my mountain of a situation. I looked back on the past 15 years, and realized that I put myself into a similar situation such as this almost every year, and around the same time. I have created a habit of subjecting myself to this on a consistent basis. I was able to grasp that my behaviors, year after year, have not deviated from this cyclical path. Now, don’t get me wrong. I understand that this is an issue that I must resolve, and I will. However, this tells me some things. This points out that I will get through this, but if I don’t look at changing my learned behavior, I’m going to subject myself to this exact scenario time after time after time.
This perspective has also taught me that as long as I continue to remain within this same cycle, I won’t be able to focus on more daunting issues that the other people in my life may be experiencing, and could utilize my focus and support. I want to make sure that they know that I am available to be there for them when they need me, no matter when, no matter why. I want them to know the kind of person I truly am and desire to become.
I am making it a priority this year for me to begin taking a step back from whatever situation I am currently in, and gaining a different perspective before making a decision or woeing about my problems. I am going to pay more attention to the bigger picture, the larger scheme of things. I am going to stay in focus more with the world around me, and pay more attention to those who have meaning in my life.
I’m also going to make some changes in my own behaviors moving forward, as I hike through life’s toughest overgrown trails, full of thorns and thickets, dense forests and treacherous terrains. I’m going to take some advice and learn from my bushcraft community on how to cut a new path through the thick of things. I may bleed and blister through my journey, but I will eventually find a way to come out on the other end alive. I will most likely have scars from the many battles, but they will always be a part of me and will remind me in the future of how tough it was and how I was able to tough through it and triumph.
The mountain doesn’t look so big when you flip around the binoculars. Perspective is everything, and gaining a new perspective can shed a different light on any situation that may present itself. Take heed these words, as I have no intent to lead you astray of your desired destination.